Wolfbrother's Song

I should be excited...

2009-09-30T04:17:07Z

Yet, instead, I'm frantically panicking over a job interview I have on Thursday, after a several month dry spell, in the field of EMS. I'm actually interviewing for a company near me that does what I want to do with my life. Everything is exactly what I want, it's too perfect. Something has to be wrong...

I hate resumes. I hate them with a passion, yet I'm fretting over mine like my life depends on it. Maybe that's why I hate them so much.

I don't even KNOW how to do a cover letter. Can I just write a big D on my resume and be done with it? Or maybe an A... no, that'd be too pretentious... I'll give myself a B and move on.

I need a panic button.

Announcement time!

2009-08-20T07:35:17Z

I have 'plastic' on my eyeballs.

Topic time...

2009-08-16T09:42:11Z

I am alive, in theory.

Discuss.

On the work front

2009-07-15T21:06:13Z

So, in the last two days, I've gotten calls on two different job positions. Today, I got a call about an EMT position available up near Oakland. Yesterday, I was informed about an ER Physician position available. Sadly, I had to turn both of those down, for obvious reasons (I hope).

It makes me feel a little better, knowing that people are at least calling me in regard to jobs... but an ER Physician position? They even asked for Doctor Eder.

Yeah, I'm still enjoying that one.

Edit: It was awesome hearing Kane on the phone with the lady asking for Dr. Eder. "Yes, it's my family name honey, I know how to spell it, now what is the first name you were looking for?"

Perhaps control would help...

2009-06-17T21:05:00Z

Sorry I haven't been posting much recently. I just don't like posting when things aren't going so well. I've never been a big fan of just dumping my problems on people. Still working on getting a job, but with luck that will be taken care of soon. Other than that, birthday in three days, not sure if I'm doing anything for it...

not sure if I WANT to do anything for it.

I guess I need to better myself before I'll feel better about celebrating anything. I've never wanted to make a big deal of my birthday to begin with, but I don't mind using it as an excuse to spend time with friends, so I usually look forward to that aspect. I could probably use a day to just relax, but meh. I'll feel better if I pass my ambulance license test tomorrow...

Or maybe I'll just ask for a job for my birthday.

Gotta love days like these.

2009-05-13T02:44:51Z

Woke up this morning sick to my stomach, and lost my dinner last night. Spent most of the day sleeping with the occasional moment of alertness. Headache from hell, body is sore. I hate being sick.

Stolen from stevefoxx

2009-05-03T17:06:33Z

What bill do you hate paying the most?
---Mate's credit card. The more we pay off, the farther it feels we have to go.

Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
---We stayed home for our anniversary, this year.

What do you really want to be doing right now?
---Working.

How many colleges did you attend?
---1. Cuesta College
2. UCLA

Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
---Wait... I'm wearing a shirt?

What are your thoughts on gas prices?
---I need a car.

First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
---Mmm... molesticate the tiger...

Last thought before going to sleep last night?
--- What time do I need to wake up again?

Do you miss being a child?
--- Why? I get to do all the things I could as a child now anyway.

What errand/chore do you despise?
---Litter box duty.

Get up early or sleep in?
---I prefer getting up early, but it's hard to do when I have no reason to be awake.

Have you found real love yet?
--- Love is only as real as you make it out to be. I'm happily married, but that doesn't have to be a prerequisite. You can find real love in a group of good, honest, friends.

Favorite lunch meat?
---Honeyed ham?

What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart?
--- Red hair dye.

Beach or lake?
--- Beach, honestly. Some good recent memories of beachtime activities.

Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
---Marriage as a ritual is outdated. Marriage as a contract between two people is not.

Sopranos or Desperate Housewives?
--- Um... wha?

What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
--- That's kind of a tough one. Famous people are just people. I guess I'd have to say any famous person who'd be willing to sit down and have a meal with someone like me without being all high and mighty or holier-than-thou.

Have you ever crashed your vehicle?
--- Technically. Power steering failed and I lost control, but I was driving, so yes.

Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
--- Not yet.

Ring tone?
--- Needs a phone!

Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
--- The garage, honestly.

Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
--- I'd say crossing the border to leave the state, but I've done that already...

Do you go to church?
--- No.

At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
--- Well, I technically have both, but at this stage I'm still starting my new career, so I'll say career.

How old are you?
26

Do you have a go-to person?
--- I have one or two. As stubborn as I am, I know that sometimes I need help.

Are you where you want to be in life?
--- Yes, except for the still no job part.

Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons?
--- Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.

What about you do you think has changed the most?
--- I finally accept myself for who I am, and I am a little less down on myself.

Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life?
--- They were probably some of the most important years of my life, but no way. I'm having way too much fun now.

Are there times you still feel like a kid?
--- All the time. It's hard to want to grow up when there's so much fun things to explore.

Did you ever own troll dolls?
--- No, never really interested me, except to fling them by their hair.

Did you have a pager?
--- Nope. By the time I was old enough, cell phones were the big thing.

Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?
--- The slab was a big hang out spot. Never figured out where it was. Never cared.

Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with?
--- I would say no, except I have this feeling my children are going to be just as mischievous without any external help needed.

Who do you think impacted your life the most?
--- My dad, more than likely. He wasn't there as much as I would have liked, but he had good things to say when he was.

Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out for you?
--- Mr. Carroll. He got me into writing initially, and he constantly pushed me to work harder and stay focused.

What is the strangest food you've ever eaten?
--- I can't even remember what it was called, or what it was, honestly. It was back in 2003, at some ethnic food place.

How's it going to end?
---Don't know, don't care. I don't want to know how I'm going to die, it'll take all the fun out of it.

Quick-type update

2009-04-15T05:36:44Z

Interview went OK, had to take some tests, made the interviewer laugh, feeling OK with the whole thing, but it's a wait and see at this point. I'm one of X interviewees, and I have to be the best to stand a chance... -_- Just waiting for now. That, or bug Care and see where they are sitting in the whole mess.

And it's come this far...

2009-04-10T06:28:10Z

So, tomorrow I go into the office of McCormick Ambulance and sit in on an interview. Everything I trained for has pretty much been for this moment. If I do well, I could very well be working by this time next week...

then why the hell am I so fucking scared?

Thinking (A dangerous thing for a 'yote to be doing)

2009-02-26T02:11:28Z

So, between my own personal life, and things I've been seeing spread out over Livejournal, and other places where I can see what other people are doing, I've been thinking a lot about where I am and what I'm doing. I'm on the edge of working as an EMT, I've got applications out, and I'm still sending out more, so that's fine. I'm not giving up on that, so no worries. I'm talking more in the line of hobby/life enjoying stuff.

I have been wanting to learn to draw, and I have enjoyed writing most of my life. However, I always talk about, fondly, something that I once did in my life, as a hobby and a job (almost, I never got paid, but I treated it as one). With some new friends, and some other random events, I've found my longing for something I once did growing stronger and stronger, so I've come to a conclusion.

I'm buying a drumset.

No, I don't mean tomorrow. Nor do I mean this month, or even next month. I have debt I need to get caught up on, but as soon as I can justify the purchase, there is going to be a nice drumset in my garage.

I'm sorry, Kane, for this, but my mind is set on this. I won't buy it if you say no, but I will continuously ask you until you say yes. Every hour, on the hour. Every day... every week... every year... even while you sleep...

Besides, it'll give you an excuse to pick up music again too. ;)

So, this 'yote will be getting the rust out of his drumming paws sometime in the future. Hopefully, one day, I can play for some of you, and not totally suck.

From January 26, 2004...

2009-02-25T00:19:47Z

until today, the wait is now officially over. I received my EMT certification card today... OK, not the real one, the machine was broken, so I got a paper temporary, but still, it's legit enough to get me a job. So yes, this means it's official.

I'm an EMT!

Now I need a job.

test results in...

2009-02-13T16:45:06Z

so, I woke up to find a link to this in my email this morning.

That's right, I'm yet another step closer to my realization.

I'll feel better....

2009-02-13T08:29:57Z

Once I shed this feeling of uselessness.

1580 minutes and counting

2009-02-11T19:41:24Z

That's right. I officially have a test date for my NREMT! 2pm Thursday, February 12th. For those who haven't figured that out, that's tomorrow...

So, this yote will be nose in the books for a while.

Yay

Back from the dentist.

2009-02-08T03:18:07Z

The damage? Seven fillings, and one pulled tooth. Oh, and the warning that I may need a root canal in the future. Fun....

I'm on these nice painkillers, though. Don't feel a thing right now, other than a funky gap where a tooth should be. Glad that's over with, and not nearly as bad as I was expecting it to be. (I have a wild imagination.)

Oh BOY! glee -_-

2009-02-07T15:37:53Z

I'm off to the dentist! Yay for me. This is going to be so much fun.

Let it fall!

2009-02-06T02:19:10Z

I'm sitting here listening to the wind blow and the rain fall.

It doesn't rain enough in Southern California.

that is all.

Yote on the hunt

2009-02-04T00:51:28Z

Looking for any pictures of me from FC. Any at all would be appreciated. I know there were lots taken, but I haven't seen too many out there.

Back home

2009-01-28T09:35:10Z

Con's done. Report to follow...

maybe...

...

2009-01-20T20:42:35Z

OMGTRUCKZEN360CONSHOETACOWII!!!

Sorry I dropped of the face of the planet again...

2009-01-14T15:02:14Z

But we just recently moved, and after we got internets back, class had already ended and I was busy with other things...

Anyway, I have my ambulance ride-along in two hours. I'll be gone for 12 hours, possibly longer. Once that's done, assuming I've made contact with five different patients, then I can take the NREMT, the test that will allow me to actually look for a job. So things are moving along swiftly and smoothly thus far. It's a YAY FUN HAPPY SILLY EMT AMBULANCE kinda day.

Is anyone even counting anymore?

2008-12-27T13:37:54Z

It's Day 10 (yes, I'm still counting) and I have another test today. Test 4, which is supposed to be the hardest test of the entire bunch. I've passed all prior tests, but I'm not letting that go to my head. I'm studying my ass off for this one, and I'm going to make sure I pass it, not just assume I will. I'm really well off score-wise on the tests (with a 96, 89, and 86). Passing requires an average of 80, not all tests over 80, so I'm really ahead of the curve. I, however, cannot accept less than passing on all tests. I won't feel confident in my knowledge if I do. Perfection I do not require, but failure is not an option.

Oh, and being in the moment is FUCKING AWESOME. No explanation will be given. It's not something that can be explained.

Enthusiasm - 10
Optimism - 10
Alertness - 6
Hunger - 5
Brain Thinky - 6 (and this is before caffiene)

Speed update: Day 7

2008-12-23T06:03:51Z

Test score in: 89%. Passing Grade

Enthusiasm - 10
Optimism - 10
Alertness - 0 (yote sleeping)
Hunger - 3 (nummy s'getti)
Brain Thinky - 0 (see above)

This post brought to you by Typing with Tiger for Sleeping Yotes ^^

Day 7, here we come!

2008-12-22T13:37:18Z

So, I made it through week 1. Week 2 starts today, and I only have two days this week before I'm off for Christmas. That will help a lot with my mind, giving it some rest.

I took my test on Saturday, and like I said before, I'm not too confident with its outcome, but I'll find out today at some point what EXACTLY I got. Paws crossed. Anyway, yesterday was a lot of fun. I volunteered to be a victim for trauma reaction class (whatever it's called) only they had too many volunteers, so instead I got assigned as an 'on scene first responder.' I got to help with a car crash, over, and over, and over... :D What was even cooler was I got to help one of my skills instructors take her test. All in all, it was an awesome experience and I'm glad I got to do it.

Diving into day seven, and looking forward to every moment of this. It's great, because I want this class to end so I can start working as an EMT, but if it wasn't for that little fact, I'd want to take this class forever.

Enthusiasm - 10
Optimism - 9 (dock one point for poor test outlook)
Alertness - 8 (yay sleep)
Hunger - 6
Brain Thinky - 4

Voice Post

2008-12-20T18:36:46Z